I'm such a good liar.. Especially how many affairs I was having behind him.
And especially when i was like having one phone sex after the other.. and not forgetting sextings ..
GOSH!! Loved it so much.. but its really sounds so realistic rite my email to that fool ?
---------- Forwarded message ----------From: killMYname <feelmeheaven@gmail.com>Date: Mon, Feb 7, 2011 at 12:18 PMSubject: im lost in here
Hey ,
Well, how am I suppose to explain this to you ? >< I have alot on my mind.... Maybe I'm a bad person doing good thing, or a good person doing bad thing. What happened? Cuz we're going nowhere now. We're falling out. When I'm with you, its like rolling dice It would B better off with U as a friend Would B calmer if I had never learned ur name,but I learned u N a trance & I feel N love with U I'm trying to stay strong, But its so hard when you've held me down for so long. I will overcome this and stand tall, while I watch & leave you Perhaps there is NO exceptions……
Wishes I could stop my heart from beating so I wouldn't feel the way I am feeling. I have been hit a hard blow to the heart...maybe this time its gone for good. I want 2 thro it all away sometimes, but then I think I'm stronger then that, it just takes time, But my patiences is growing short with my ownself. I wish we would go back to where we were cause im so sick with my jealousy. I can't get the bounce back feel of how I feel for you. cause the silence after all is really killing me ... ); i kno we can never be open wif our relationship, don't we ? & also I feel stupidly stupid when I seem to be the one wanting yr accompany all the time, bothering you around, & even worse i can't have u whenever i feel notty@horny. [*shy] just lyk how my friend described to me ... U kno wat ? I feel bad when those of my net friend signing me to have notty conversation with him, then i started thinking why can't i have it with my own bf if i ever have one ? This is all my fault, I'm the one being rejected by u…… Would you mind if i say no matter wat happened we will remain as friend forever ? at least i kno that i still have u with me. as You're fucking perfect to me......
