Good Guys Always Gets the Leftovers & Losses any freshness of the Girl - Feb 2011

This was me during 2011, Just played out this silly guy, that did not even took a single advantage of me nor utter a vulgar words.

I guess... I do admit i'm selfish. 

I want his loyalty and respect.. But i Just cant let go of those Adventures & Thrills i'm going thru.

Infact, later on, you will soon to know, i"ve expanded my wings and started my random meetups from Social Networks & took this to another Level!

In a way, pity this fool.. But i seriously played him out GOOD!!

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From: killMYname <feelmeheaven@gmail.com>
Date: Mon, Feb 7, 2011 at 12:18 PM
Subject: im lost in here

Hey ,

  Well, how am I suppose to explain this to you ?  ><

  I have alot on my mind....

  Maybe I'm a bad person doing good thing, or a good person doing bad thing.

  What happened? Cuz we're going nowhere now. We're falling out.  

  When I'm with you, its like rolling dice

  It would B better off with U as a friend & Would B calmer if I had never learned ur name,but I learned u N
    a trance & I feel N love with U

  I'm trying to stay strong, But its so hard when you've held me down for so long. I will overcome this   
   and stand tall, while I watch & leave you

  Perhaps there is NO exceptions…… 

  Wishes I could stop my heart from beating so I wouldn't feel the way I am feeling.

  I have been hit a hard blow to the heart...maybe this time its gone for good.

  I want 2 thro it all away sometimes, but then I think I'm stronger then that, it just takes time, But
   my patiences is growing short with my ownself. I wish we would go back to where we were
   cause im so sick with my jealousy. I can't get the
   bounce back feel of how I feel for you.

  cause the silence after all is really killing me ... );

   i kno we can never be open wif our relationship, don't we ?

   & also I feel stupidly stupid when I seem to be  the one wanting yr accompany all the time, bothering you around, & even worse i can't have u whenever i 
     feel notty@horny. [*shy] just lyk how my friend described to me ...

   U kno wat ? I feel bad when those of my net friend signing me to have notty conversation with him, then i started thinking why can't i have it with my own bf if
    i ever have one ?

  This is all my fault, I'm the one being rejected by u……

  Would you mind if i say no matter wat happened we will remain as friend forever ? at least i kno that i still have u with me. as You're fucking perfect to me......