Story of My Life - Yvonne Kua

No birthday cake this year. :( and not celebrated by Abang again this year. I really dont know what it is. On valentine's day, he had dinner with others. And we had quarrel. My birthday last year, it was not celebrated as well. This year, 2014, second year. On my birthday eve, I just found out he actually went to TGIF for dinner at paradigm mall. Celebrated Halloween? I messaged him on my birthday eve, thought i could celebrate with him, who knows i passed that day alone by myself at home. On my birthday that morning 5.30 something i called him again, i thought if he answered, i would straight away cancel the volunteer programme and then passed that day with Abang. Nope, he did not answer. I really wish it wasnt what i thought. I went for the Viper Challenge. Then only he called, i really dont wanna imagine what happened. After came back from the volunteer briefing, i waited for his call, thought he did call before my birthday passed at 12pm, but there was nothing. So stupid, i sha...

Well yeah, I am back to the life of myself. No more worries on what to do for others. I definitely can forget everything and start all over, start a new life. Things to achieve: 1. Professional paper (ACCA/CPA Australia) 2. Language course 3. Travels 4. Change my look *winkz 5. New car 6. Study abroad 7. Volunteer work 8. Classes - music (piano), dance etc 9. Be a tutor during weekends 10. more... I strongly believe I can pass through what I once passed through. I can do it. I will be someone! Be strong Yvonne! (:

yvonne kua hi adik 5 messages Radzwil Johan  Mon, Dec 24, 2012 at 10:29 PM To: yvonne 9006 pekaba? lama xdengar berita?... y v o n n e  Fri, Dec 28, 2012 at 1:48 PM To: Radzwil Johan hi.. i penah tried to call u, tp tak dapat pun.... On Mon, Dec 24, 2012 at 10:29 PM, Radzwil Johan  < radzwil79@gmail.com >  wrote: pekaba? lama xdengar berita?... Radzwil Johan  Sat, Dec 29, 2012 at 1:03 AM To: y v o n n e hi adik sygg..miss u taw...ni no abg 012 6457408..nnt kol or sms ya...emmmuuahhh On Fri, Dec 28, 2012 at 1:48 PM, y v o n n e  < feelmeheaven@gmail.com >  wrote: hi.. i penah tried to call u, tp tak dapat pun.... On Mon, Dec 24, 2012 at 10:29 PM, Radzwil Johan  < radzwil79@gmail.com >  wrote: pekaba? lama xdengar berita?...

Wohoo.. Abang lemme drove his Vellfire! This is one of the most happiest day in my life! I love him so much and i don't think i can live without him :( So many sins in me, and all the dark sides... Do i deserve him :( I hope he knows how i have changed, but yeah just like everyone will be cautious towards a person that has been in jail before... I know that, but i just can't tahan when he scolded me bitch, low level, pahria, cheapskate, bitch, slut!! I don't like! and i become emotional everytime this happens and said bye. But i hope u know i never mean bye. I love Abang so much. but i just cant show. :((

Yesterday was one of the unforgettable day in my life!.. He lemme drove The car he borrowed from his friend, Ed! (: whoop. .my first time driving in KL! Hehe.. The journey was mostly using smart tunnel and it was fun! However.. relationship between me and him is so suffocating for me!! I tell myself everything is fine..I am good But come on..everyone sees that will think there is something! ! What to say me??! I hate this. I hope I can leave and he goes back to his lovely life! His lovely blog with her.. His model. Me pahlia, who am I compare to a model..There is nothing between  them they were so in love. Are high high I hate this! ! I just wanna have a life.. A normal person's life..normal life cycle without all these! I am barely able to breathe!! Habits.. Aku gatal.. Ape nak buat? I can't stick with one single dick.. That's my problem!!